Monday, November 28, 2011

After You

I stand over your grave
The sky is dark blue
And I would like to
Lie down beside you
Won't you let me
Curl up and die too?

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Room #710B

Empty rooms all around
Running down the hall
Could someone help me, please?
I'm looking for Room #710B
Hoping he might be there to smile at me

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Sunday, October 23, 2011


You tell me everything will be alright
I don't believe you anymore

Bitterness crawls through my veins
As you tell me to have faith
Believe in God's grace

My faith was buried
Six feet deep

On a Wednesday in September
I laid it down beside him
And watched with apathy
As dirt swallowed both of them silently

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Boy At A Wedding

I met a boy at a wedding
We danced the night away
Under white lights and paper planes

People surrounded us with smiles
His brown eyes were warm
When he bent down to kiss me

I met a boy at a wedding
We spun in circles
Our laughter spilling out

And I felt as though
I had fallen into
A secret fairytale

I met a boy at a wedding
We danced the night away
Under white lights and paper planes

Sunday, September 25, 2011


You don't listen
Always distracted
With things that
Have to do
With you
When I say your name
Again and again
You'll hold yourself still
Long enough for me
To open my mouth
And forget how to speak
All of these secrets
Keep building up
Inside of me

Saturday, September 17, 2011

(I'm Not) Who I Was

This time things will be different
When I pick myself up off the floor
I won't be the person I was before
I keep repeating the lie
Over and over again
Trying to convince myself
To start all over again

Friday, August 26, 2011

Best Friends

What happened to you?
My words hang silent and heavy
Stuck in between you and me
And although I could
Pick your face out from a crowd
I barely recognize you
We're both so different now
It makes me sad
That we both gave up and walked away

Sunday, August 14, 2011


I visit a cemetery
Passing slabs of grey
I pause at one
Who were you?
What was your story?
Silence is my only answer
I weave your life
Inside of my mind
Has everyone forgotten you too?

Friday, August 5, 2011

Hit Me With Those Blue Eyes

As your eyes appraise the room
They rest on me
And it's frightening
How quickly
They seem to cut through
Behind your level gaze
And mocking smile
Lies a quiet intensity

Sunday, July 24, 2011


I have a secret
A way to end it all
Hidden away
In the bottom
Of a drawer
I keep it near
Just in case
I can't stay here

Saturday, July 16, 2011

A Bed That Creaks

I’m spread out across  
A bed that creaks
You settle in

Sinking beside me
Just close enough

To almost touch
Eyes tight with tension
Mouth thin from worry
Words have become
So very obsolete
You reach out
And pull me near
A tight hold
I press myself closer
As time passes slow
We stay still
Lying side by side
On a bed that creaks

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The End

Silly girl
Thought I'd be happy now
Nothing left to "fix"
So tell me why
I still feel broken

Saturday, June 18, 2011


I have never been more content                                        
Hanging out the car window
Wind blowing my hair
Into a wild mess

Friday, June 3, 2011

The Back Yard

Swing, Swing
Back and forth
Sun, sun
Comfort and warmth
Feet, feet
Bare and rough
Wind, wind
Playful and rushed
Love, love
Laughter and hugs
Smile, smile
Mirrored and wide

Monday, May 23, 2011


Show me a picture
Fill the lines in with your dreams
Color your hope in between
Please take me there
Bright as can be
Show me
How to live so colorfully

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


Heartbeat wild
Legs weak
Doors slide shut silently
Can't move forward
Fear creeps through me
Death in the air I breathe
Set my face in a careful mask
Cannot show that I feel weak
Straighten my shoulders
Turn towards you and speak

Sunday, May 8, 2011


My mind is preoccupied with you
I wonder where you might be
Off to fight in this endless war
Thousands of miles away
Scenarios race through my brain
Of death and pain
Do you ever feel unsure
Of what we’re really fighting for?

I saw you on Sunday
You’re back home 
I wonder for how long this time
You look…blank
A face devoid of anything
What happened to you?

It’s a new year
January 1st
My resolution is about to break
You’re gone again
I have a feeling this time
You won’t be coming back

It’s another Sunday
When I hear the news
Your family is absent
Empty spots in the church pew
Roadside bomb
Six dead
And I know one of them
Was you

Gunfire, salutes and a flag
A brown coffin and black mourners
Color my Thursday
I feel intrusive
Stuck in one place
Unable to move
A slab of grey
Is all that’s left of you

Thursday, May 5, 2011

New Year

Goodbye, 2010
You were not kind
I can't say that I regret
Leaving you behind

Sunday, May 1, 2011


I live my life
Between white pages
Quiet and careful
Nothing ever changes
Frightened of what's real
This magic world
Helps me hide
Guarded carefully
From the outside
Your reality is dull
Compared to mine

Friday, April 22, 2011


It's calm down here
Quiet and deep
I jumped in quickly
No one heard me leave
The water rippled slightly
But no one turned to see

Thursday, April 21, 2011


I was comfortable with being miserable
I didn't want anything more

I was comfortable with being tired
I didn't remember feeling awake

I was comfortable with being alone
I didn't know that love could exist

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Astrid Farnsworth

I’m a tough cookie                                                                        
You can’t knock me down
Translating words
Looking after a mad scientist
Taking care of a cow
Hunting alternate people down
I’m a tough cookie
You don’t scare me

Monday, April 4, 2011

In Between

Sand filled eyes
My misery lies
To old to be young
To young to be old
I'm stuck Somewhere
In between

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Shadow Man

Shadow man
Shadow man
Catch me if you can
Stealing souls
With the flick of a hand
Oh he has friends
On the other side
Shadow man
Shadow man
Catch me if you can

Saturday, February 26, 2011

The Invisible Girl

I am the invisible girl
You don't know my name
Although you've heard it
So many times
Everyday you pass by
Unaware of my stare
I am the invisible girl

Sunday, February 13, 2011


I hate the quiet
Silence is an enemy
Solitude is feared
Pain fills empty spaces
Distractions bring relief
I hate the quiet
So many things to think about
When the noise disappears

Sunday, February 6, 2011


I would like to move backwards
To a time when I knew
What I wanted

Rewind, rewind
Watch me
Move backwards through time

A place where I felt safe
And things made sense
Oblivious and free
That was how it used to be

Rewind, rewind
Watch me
Move backwards through time

Friday, February 4, 2011


Seconds passing slow
Heart beating fast
Feet shuffling
Glances at a hand
Frustration bubbling
Tears starting to burn
People murmuring
Words that aren’t heard

Thursday, February 3, 2011


Quiet contentment
Is how I want love to be
If it should ever
happen to me

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


Irrational thoughts upon a page
Deleted before you could see
How much you mean to me
Six weeks to the day
Not sure that we are okay
But when I see you walk through the door
I’m happier than before
Sometimes... home feels like you

Monday, January 31, 2011


In a corner
Is where I hide
Safe and sound
From prying eyes
A secret place
That no one can find

Sunday, January 30, 2011


We both have parts to play
Different masks for different days
Your sad eyes stare back at me
I’m waiting for someone to see
Our hurt is radiating
This facade is slowly crumbling

Saturday, January 29, 2011


I take pictures
To prove that I was here
I hang them up
For all to see
So you won’t forget me

Friday, January 28, 2011


I love your laugh
So bright and warm
It makes me smile
And want to laugh along

Thursday, January 27, 2011


Round and round I go
Where I stop nobody knows
Faster and faster
Again and again
Gravity, you are no longer my friend.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


I never see the word EXIT
Without my pulse giving a race
My feet want to run
As though I am being chased

Monday, January 24, 2011


Every once in a while
I look up and see
Colors shining down at me

Sunday, January 23, 2011


I think I’ll join the Circus
They love freaks like me
Then I wouldn’t have to hide constantly

Friday, January 21, 2011


Today was a boring day
I slept most of it away
Hidden under the blankets
In the middle of the day
Tucked away

Thursday, January 20, 2011


I don’t need you
You don’t need me
Indifferent is the way to be

I don’t need you
You don’t need me
There has never been
A safer place to be

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


Memories of a swing
Kicking my feet
Back and forth
Trying to touch the sky
Hair thrown wildly behind

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


I recognize that look in your eyes
I know what it’s like
Day after day
Everything stays the same
On repeat
Again and again
When you smile
I like to believe
That things could get better