Sunday, November 18, 2012


I decided to fight
The year I turned fifteen

I learned how to backslide
The year I turned sixteen

Four words changed everything
The year I turned seventeen

I began to understand independence
The year I turned eighteen

Life began to unravel
The year I turned nineteen

I decided not to leave
The year I turned twenty

I lost my faith 
The year I turned twenty-one

I discovered what it meant to be brave
The year I turned twenty-two

Sunday, October 21, 2012


When I found you 
You had raw edges
That stung and cut
With rage filled eyes
And a silent mouth
You were a complication
That I couldn't figure out

When you found me 
You saw bruises up and down
A map of what had gone wrong
Etched without care
It told you everything
And nothing all at once

Monday, September 3, 2012

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Eyes Wide Open

I've been walking 
With my eyes closed
Down a path 
That I don't know

Faith is what I needed
Something I couldn't remember
I had shoved it away so long ago

So I started walking 
With my eyes closed
Down a path
That I didn't know

I was afraid to fail
Like so many times before
And add more regrets to the load

But I started walking 
With my eyes closed 
Down a path 
That I didn't know

I don't want to be alone anymore
And you seem to know
Offering your hand for me to hold

My eyes are wide open
We both take a step
Down a path
That I'm starting to call home

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Chasing Sunbeams

I am part of the lost generation
Nothing easy or simple
Everything used and broken

But the fractured pieces
Have been here all along

Held together by bandages
And people telling me
That nothing was wrong

Monday, June 11, 2012

The Man In A Business Suit

I saw a man in a business suit
Feeding ducks at the park
I paused in my walk
To watch him silently

And I felt a sort of sadness
Start to envelope me
I couldn't help but wonder
What must have happened
To bring him there

Standing alone in an empty park
Pulling bread from a brown paper bag
And throwing it absentmindedly to the ground

Feeling intrusive I turned to leave
The falling rain followed my footsteps
Offering a muffled beat

Thursday, May 31, 2012


I want to curl up
And rock away
From this world

I want to scream
And show everyone
I am not permanent

I want to tear my skin
And find 
Whatever is hiding inside

I want to kick and punch
Leave marks and scars
That can be seen

I want to run 
From my tangled mess
It never leaves

Monday, May 14, 2012


Fingernail indentations
Marked onto my skin
I stare at them silently
As you keep talking

I curl my hand back
Open and close
And I watch them bleed
While you keep talking

I dig in deeper
Trying to unleash
The emptiness inside of me
And you keep talking 

Saturday, April 14, 2012


I was taught my whole life that some things
Would always be black and white
But now that I've begun to explore
I don't know what to believe in anymore

Although I know that black and white
Are the only colors you have ever seen
I feel as though I've been lied to
About the color that lives in between

And now I don't know what to do
This world of grey that I am walking through
Has me so lost and confused

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Dressed Up

I've heard the first step is the hardest
That it gets easier with time
But I'm starting to think
Those words are just dressed up lies
Tricking people into believing
Once time moves by
Everything will return
To its original place
Exactly the same
With nothing changed

You tell me the first step is the hardest
That it gets easier with time
But no matter how hard I try
I can't spin back to a past
That I no longer recognize
With chipped memories
And empty spaces
Your words are just dressed up lies

Saturday, January 28, 2012


You tell me everyone leaves
And you don't believe
I will be the exception

I try to hold on tight
But you slip through
As the morning and I
Begin to break

Wednesday, January 4, 2012


You've never pushed me around
I've never felt the sting of a slap

But as fists flew from your mouth
They cut and bruised more
Than any punch thrown could

We stood in shocked silence
Startled in the aftermath