After You

I stand over your grave

The sky is dark blue

And I would like to

Lie down beside you

Won't you let me

Curl up and die too?

Room #710B

Empty rooms all around
Running down the hall
Could someone help me, please?
I'm looking for Room #710B
Hoping he might be there to smile at me

The Sea

 You wouldn't find a happier me

If Heaven was like the sea

Salvation

You tell me everything will be alright

I don't believe you anymore

Bitterness crawls through my veins

As you tell me to have faith

Believe in God's grace

My faith was buried

Six feet deep

On a Wednesday in September

I laid it down beside him

And watched with apathy

As dirt swallowed both of them silently

Boy At A Wedding

I met a boy at a wedding
We danced the night away
Under white lights and paper planes

People surrounded us with smiles
His brown eyes were warm
When he bent down to kiss me

I met a boy at a wedding
We spun in circles
Our laughter spilling out

And I felt as though
I had fallen into
A secret fairytale

I met a boy at a wedding
We danced the night away
Under white lights and paper planes

Deaf

You don't listen
Always distracted
With things that
Have to do
With you
Sometimes
When I say your name
Again and again
You'll hold yourself still
Long enough for me
To open my mouth
And forget how to speak
All of these secrets
Keep building up
Inside of me

(I'm Not) Who I Was

This time things will be different

When I pick myself up off the floor

I won't be the person I was before

I keep repeating the lie

Over and over again

Trying to convince myself

To start all over again