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There is so much anger

Inside of my heart 

As I watch

You suffer 

I want to scream out

Against their convictions

But the words stay twisted

Inside of my mouth

Grief is a strange thing

It rears its head intermittently

Making sure that I don't forget

What's been done to us

There is so much rage 

Inside of my heart

I choke back tears

They never help

Monday

Another rainy day 
Is pouring down outside
I don't want to go out
I'd rather stay in and hide

I'll make myself a home
Under a blanket fort
With vanilla tea
And christmas lights

I'll stack pillows way up high
My books will keep me company
They'll send me far away
From the dreary world waiting outside

I asked for peace (you gave me a war)

I'm sorry
And I know that's not enough
It doesn't take back what has been done

I'm sorry
I don't know what else to say
I'm just as lost as you

I'm sorry
You and I had to grow up 
Far too soon

Try

Sometimes
I forget to breathe
The world gets narrow
And my lungs scream

It's like drowning
Or being buried down deep
A prison that only I can see

Sometimes
I get so tired of fighting
And there is no ending
Only a reprieve

Wishes

Sometimes I wish
I didn't know you
That I didn't belong
To anyone

It would be easier
To let myself be lost
If I never had anything
To remind me of home

I don't want to have a history
I want to be wiped clean
A painless, glorious, blank thing

Sometimes I wish
I had not met you
That I didn't know your love
So I could be broken
And not belong
To anyone

Him

When I feel alone and scared
I pull you out of familiar pages
That safe place I call home
I have you stay beside me
And let you help fight off
The ache of my loneliness

I hear you tell me 
That it's gonna be alright
I close my eyes
And try to believe the lie
You never seem to mind
So I let you see me cry

Ache

There's an aching behind my eyes

You are the same

With words that sound so familiar

Pulled from memories

Sending me back 

To a past 

That is hard to recognize